This FREE episode of the Under the Hemlock Podcast explains the origins of the HEMLOCK MONTHLY MEMBERSHIP PROGRAM and all the benefits members can expect.

This tender episode discusses the concept of de-cathecting and how I am beginning the Hemlock greiving process.

May we embrace this lunation as a turning point. May we clear space as we transition into a new reality through deep surrender.

On this episode I discuss the sacredness of the space between where we are and where we want to be. I share an Unlabeling Exercise to help you release old labels that might be holding you back and tell personal stories of the thresholds I am currently standing in.

On this vulnerable Capricorn Full Moon Episode, I explore themes of renegotiation, secure attachment with self, and the power of experiencing things for a second time.

YOU ARE SO DEEPLY LOVED.

What does it mean to land more deeply into our lives? What magic do we possess as a result of our lived experiences? What is it time for us to embrace? What does it mean to create safety in our own beingness? What is SEX anyway? I pose all these questions and more on this June 2024 episode of Under the Hemlock.

Enjoy this heartfelt episode that explores my recent personal journey into the darkness of the birth canal. As we welcome the Sagittarius Full Moon may you build your own pyre in order to be reborn.

On this April 2024 Episode of Under the Hemlock, we discuss the power of choice and the ways in which choosing asks us to face our fears.

This is a story about timing and the magic of the millons of things that led us to now.

I had so much fun embracing curiosity and recording this short little February 2024 Full Moon Podcast Episode for you. As you listen I encourage you to think about the patterns you've fallen into that you're ready to relinquish even if you don't know how it will turn out - turns out the research says that's great for us! Take the nourishment you need from this episode and know that I am so deeply proud of you.

Welcome to our first Under the Hemlock episode of 2024. This podcast is a little bit of a love letter to New York City where Holland and I are right now. May you know how uniquely beautiful you are and how your differences add to the collective beauty of this world. May you be abandoned to joy today.

This December 2023 Cancer Full Moon Episode asks us to come home to ourselves to touch the tender places before looking ahead. I share how my illness has forced me to do this and how I’m learning to offer gentleness to myself in real-time.

This November 2023 Gemini Full Moon Episode explores the truths that are moving from our unconscious to our conscious mind. I share how I am still in hiding after my recent Anniversary trip and how I was able to utilize my Renegotiation of Trauma through Play exercise during a traumatic event.

On this October ‘23 episode of Under the Hemlock I share a recent story of being cracked open - yet fully grounded.

This Full Moon brings about the completion of a two year cycle, so it is with this knowledge that I encourage you to lean into who you were two years ago and who you are today.

May you feel a deep sense of embodiment and groundedness. You can be here. You are safe here. Your body can hold you here. Your breath can guide you here.

Birthday (Aries) Full Moon

On this September ‘23 episode of Under the Hemlock I share a recent story of painful projection, personal accusation, and reclaiming power of a different kind. My hope is that this experience offers you encouragement and a reminder that we get to CHOOSE to do power differently.

“Full Moons are closures. Culminations that lead us to shed. Aries shows us our path isn’t a desire, it’s a need. And that need cannot be ignored under this full Moon.

The Full Moon in Aries on 29 September, 2023, offers us the courage to release what is not ours to carry, and step fully into the direction that is ours to take.”

Excerpt from GIRL AND HER MOON.

Death. Release. Fear. Renewal.

These are all themes on the 2nd Under the Hemlock episode in August 2023.

My friend died this morning and my body has known this was coming for a week. But what does this mean? What is this release calling me to?

I pray this intimate episode full of stories that have unfolded in the last 30 days brings you comfort as you face your fears and release them under this Blue Pisces Full Moon tonight.

This August 2023 Episode of Under the Hemlock is all about WANTING - and being brazen enough to do so. We unpack my fears surrounding “the type of woman” who wants and I ask what our lives would look like if we could have it all our way. Would we even know what we’d want? For so many of us, the needs, wants, and desires of others crowd our minds and hearts, but this Supermoon invites us to release that which no longer serves us in order to make way for that which we really WANT. Enjoy this episode, my loves, and may August be filled with wanting.

This July 2023 Episode is deeply personal. I walk you into and through my journey of sacral discovery over this past month and how I am pushing into discomfort, trusting my intuition, and healing my body. I invite you to take from my story and let it nurture you. This full moon is an “invitation to sink into your body, explore your emotion, and nurture your heart.” (Girl & Her Moon) When I chose my word of the year, (listen to January’s episode for more context) I had no idea that this task of unearthing stored trauma lay ahead. Enjoy this episode of Under the Hemlock, my loves. Welcome to the Capricorn Full Moon.

This June 2023 episode of Under the Hemlock is all about play! On Friday evening I took a walk under the (almost) Full Moon and felt a calling to come dance, laugh, and be loved! I invite you to consider what might be keeping you from playing this summer. Is it the possibility of mistakes? A lack of nurturance? For me, it’s often the voice of my mother. In order to embrace play, I must silence her criticism and instead embrace the voice of the Man in the Moon! Enjoy this episode of Under the Hemlock, my loves. Welcome to the Sagittarius Full Moon.

This May 2023 episode of Under the Hemlock is incredibly personal. I share how today, May 4th, the day before the Full Moon should have been my 15th wedding anniversary to my first husband. I share how for over a decade I would reinact the traumatic events of this month until I learned how to renegotiate through play. I share helpful tools and my personal experiences using them. I want you to know that if you also have experienced tramatic events, I see you. This podcast is for you. Take what you need from this Nurse Log, my loves. May you know how deeply you are loved.

On our April 2023 Full Moon Episode of Under the Hemlock, I share how this Libra Full Moon has me celebrating the power of collective healing and how putting our arms around our fear like an old friend may be the key to self-love! I challenge you to question why you may fear giving yourself total permission and I invite you to lean into this upcoming Cazimi and allow your deepest wounds to heal at last. My loves, may you feed from the nourishment of this Nurse Log in this month and may you know you are deeply, deeply loved.

On our March 2023 Full Moon Episode of Under the Hemlock, I share how this Virgo Full Moon is breaking me open into a new version of myself and how I have been battling overwhelming anxiety for the past two weeks. I hope that by seeing into the fear I am facing, you are comforted through story. I share the tools I have been utilizing, including how to make a Push, Pull, Anti-Motivators List. This season has not been easy, but that does not mean that I am any less responsible for my pleasure and well-being. I discuss the power of developing a nurturing voice to ask questions of in seasons like this and how discomfort differs from times when the body says, “No!” My loves, may you feed from the nourishment of this Nurse Log in this month and may you know you are deeply, deeply loved.

On our February Full Moon Episode of Under the Hemlock, I share what I’m learning about Imbolc and how it resonates so deeply with me. After a decade of working with birthing people I have always marveled at the postpartum hours immediately after birth. Listen now to hear how this time of year and this full moon correlate so closely. I also invite you to light a candle or two tonight to honor your dreams and your growth that remain quietly below the surface of the hard winter ground. May you feed from the nourishment of this Nurse Log in this month and may you know you are deeply, deeply loved.

On our January 2023 Full Moon Episode, I dive right into my feelings about this upcoming year! I share my desires for you, my word of the year, and how I deeply I am connecting to our book of the month. In this 7 Universal year I long for each of you to take nourishment from this monthly membership program. May it be the fertilizer you need to grow and flourish. This cancer full moon speaks to our innate need to be loved, to feel safe, and to belong. May you KNOW that you belong here.

On our December 2022 Full Moon Episode, I discuss the meanings behind this Cold Full Moon and the blessings it is inviting us to claim. I share my deeply personal fears surrounding stepping into the fullness of myself and how I believe they are connected to our “witch wound” and the silencing of women generations ago. I share ten questions for releasing thought patterns and ways of being as we move into a new year. This episode feels particularly vulnerable. Thank you for witnessing my process.

On our November 2022 Full Moon Episode, I discuss the power of this Taurus Full Moon Lunar Eclipse and the CHANGE it is inviting us towards. As I sit by the ocean, I encourage you to take a deep look at what is pushing and pulling you into your next season and what anti-motivators might be getting in the way. I reflect on the darkest season of my life a mere 5 years ago, and how the darkness was necessary in order for me to truly appreciate the light.

On our first Full Moon episode, we discuss what keeps us from asking for what we need and taking it. We identify the voices and systems that were impacting our personal and sexual values at age 7, 14, and 21 - and how they might still be impacting our ability to notice, trust, and value our needs, wants, and desires today.

On this bonus episode Lauren shares her feelings of expectancy in this new season. This episode was recorded on September 29, 2022 as Hurricane Ian tore through the southern United States.